I've been thinking a lot about why I got that puppy, who I STILL MISS and think about ALL THE TIME. Why'd I do that to myself?
Ned used to accuse me of creating drama in my life, and it annoyed me, but now I'm starting to wonder--am I some sort of chaos addict? It seems like there's always a crisis du jour. Is everyone like that? It seems like my life has more ups and downs than others. Some of it was not my doing, like getting laid off twice, but some of it was. I got divorced--I had half the blame in that. Ned and I broke up and got back together 400 times. And he never broke up with me; I always did the breaking.
I was considering this all yesterday, and then last night I had a dream that I was in my ex-best-friend's wedding, and I had months to get the dress for it, but then it was the day of the wedding and it was almost 7:00 and I hadn't even GOTTEN the dress yet, and I looked at the invitation and the wedding started at 7:00. I had to tearfully call the store to see if they were still open and did they have my size.
WHICH IS ALL SOMETHING I WOULD DO. I leave things till the last minute, I spend all my money once I get it and then panic that I have no money, I double-book social engagements all the time. Doesn't that sound a little chaos-y?
I'm still thinking it over. But if you think about your more unsightly traits, what conclusions do you come to? What's going on in your life that seems to be a pattern that you want to stop?
Tell me. Then maybe I can yell at you for it and cause some chaos.
